Lyrics
All this shit's just building up, getting so hard to cope
All the challenges and problems are accumulating, making it difficult to handle.
I barely sleep I barely eat, yeah I just lock the door
Struggling with sleep and appetite, isolating oneself by locking the door.
I stay alone when I'm down, don't want no one to know
Choosing to be alone when feeling down, keeping struggles private.
Yeah I'ma go cause fuck this shit, I'm not okay at all
Expressing a desire to leave because things are not okay.
Yeah I'm not okay at all
Reiterating the sentiment of not being okay.
Feelin' like I'm trapped, surrounded by all these walls
Feeling confined, surrounded by metaphorical walls.
Yeah I'm lost in the demons planted in my head
Feeling lost due to inner demons affecting thoughts.
Tryna run but they catch you just when you think you're ahead
Attempting to escape problems, but difficulties persist.
But I'm never ahead
Acknowledging a constant struggle, never being ahead.
I swear to god they're surrounding me, nothing but dead ends
Feeling trapped with no clear solutions, only dead ends.
Got me wishing I was gone, got me wishing I was dead
Expressing a desire to be free from pain, even if it means death.
Can't commit suicide, ain't tryna give up I gotta fight this till the end
Expressing the will to fight against suicidal thoughts, despite the difficulty.
I gotta fight this till the end
Reaffirming the commitment to fight against the struggles.
But I'm spending most of my days in bed
Spending a significant amount of time in bed due to emotional exhaustion.
God I'm fucking tired but I cannot fucking sleep
Experiencing fatigue but unable to find rest through sleep.
I been searching for a meaning but what does it mean to me?
Searching for meaning in life but questioning its significance.
It means nothing
Summarizing that life's struggles have no inherent meaning.
Everyday I wake up feelin' sick to my stomach
Waking up each day feeling physically and emotionally unwell.
Drenched in sweat, paranoia got me buzzing
Experiencing intense anxiety, with paranoia affecting thoughts.
Life doesn't pause so I guess I'll have to run it
Life continues relentlessly, necessitating constant effort to keep up.
Just to catch up
Expressing frustration and a desire to rebel against life's challenges.
Man fuck all this I'm just tryna act up
Rejecting the difficulties and wanting to act out against them.
Take all these drugs faster
Expressing a desire to use drugs as an escape from reality.
Get me higher than the last one
Seeking increasingly intense experiences through drug use.
Don't mind me I'm high as fuck
Acknowledging a state of being high and unconcerned about judgment.
Milligrams of Vyvanse in my brain oh yuh
Specifying the use of Vyvanse, a prescription drug, in large amounts.
Fillin' the prescriptions month after month uh
Continuing to obtain and use prescribed medications regularly.
Fucking up my brain, tell that bitch good luck
Acknowledging the potential negative impact of drugs on mental health.
Yeah I'm not okay at all
Reiterating the ongoing struggle of not being okay.
Feelin' like I'm trapped, surrounded by all these walls
Repeating the feeling of being trapped and surrounded by challenges.
Yeah I'm lost in the demons planted in my head
Reiterating the presence of inner demons affecting thoughts.
Tryna run but they catch you just when you think you're ahead
Acknowledging the difficulty of escaping problems despite efforts.
But I'm never ahead
Reaffirming the ongoing struggle, never being ahead of the challenges.
I swear to god they're surrounding me, nothing but dead ends
Feeling surrounded by difficulties with no clear way forward.
Got me wishing I was gone, got me wishing I was dead
Expressing a desire for escape, even if it means death.
Can't commit suicide, ain't tryna give up I gotta fight this till the end
Expressing a commitment to continue fighting against the struggles until the end.
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