Numb
Emotional Turbulence: Seeking Comfort in Numbness
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I feel smothered and encumbered and defeated and drawn
I experience a sense of suffocation, burden, defeat, and attraction.
Disappointed, over-extended and frustrated and shaken
I feel let down, stretched too thin, frustrated, and disturbed.
This over-giving , over-loving, this care taking goes on
This excessive giving, intense love, and caretaking persist without a break.
With no chance of intermission
No possibility of a pause or break from the situation.
I'll be checked out, I'll be gone
I will mentally check out, detach, or withdraw.
Have to remove myself from sensation
I must distance myself from intense emotions or experiences.
Here comes the feeling
A new emotional experience is emerging.
I run from the feeling and reach for the drug
Instead of facing the emotion, I turn to a substance (drug) for relief.
Can't sit with this feeling
I cannot tolerate or endure this emotion.
I'd rather be flying and comfortably numb
I prefer escaping reality and being emotionally numb.
I feel anxious, I am nervous I am bored
I sense anxiety, nervousness, and boredom.
I'm overwhelmed, rather be out of my gourd
I feel overwhelmed and would rather be in an altered state.
Have to remove myself from sensation
Similar to line 7, a need to distance oneself from intense sensations.
Here comes the feeling
A recurring emotional experience is emerging again.
I run from the feeling and reach for the drug
As before, I turn to a drug to avoid confronting the emotion.
Can't sit with this feeling
I cannot endure or tolerate this reoccurring emotion.
I'd rather be flying and comfortably numb
I prefer escaping reality and being emotionally numb, echoing line 12.
I am lonely, I feel hungry and unloved
I am experiencing loneliness, hunger, and a lack of love.
I feel angry, I am livid, need a hug
I feel anger, extreme rage, and a need for affection.
Here comes the feeling
A repetitive emergence of an emotional state.
I run from the feeling and reach for the drug
Resorting to a drug to escape from confronting the persistent emotion.
Can't sit with this feeling
I cannot endure or tolerate this recurring emotion.
I'd rather be flying and comfortably numb
Similar to lines 12 and 22, a preference for emotional numbness over facing reality.
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