Lyrics
It doesn't hurt if I put enough shit up my nose
Expressing a coping mechanism, using substances to numb emotional pain.
'cus I love you, but I know that you don't love me no more
Acknowledging unreciprocated love and the end of a relationship.
Yea I got 99 problems, every one is a bitch
Describing various difficulties in life, symbolized as "problems."
My friends keep trying to hit me up, but I just leave them on read
Isolating oneself from friends, avoiding communication.
And I'd be lying
Admitting to emotional struggles and vulnerability.
If I said I didn't stay up just crying
Confessing to staying awake and crying as a result of emotional pain.
All night
Highlighting prolonged emotional distress throughout the night.
Waiting for a voice in my head
Expressing a desire for reassurance from within one's own thoughts.
To tell me that it's gonna be alright
Longing for an internal voice to provide comfort and assurance.
But I heard nothing and I'm getting used to it
Adapting to a lack of comforting messages and emotional support.
Blacking out because no other feeling hits
Engaging in self-destructive behavior, such as blacking out.
Wishing you would call me up to tell me I'm the shit
Desiring validation and positive affirmation from a past lover.
Running circles in my head until I get sick
Experiencing obsessive thoughts and emotional turmoil.
Until I forget you
Struggling to forget and move on from the past.
Now all my plants are dead
Symbolizing neglect of personal responsibilities and well-being.
'cus I stopped giving a fuck
Indicating a deliberate disinterest in external matters.
Said you were going home
Recalling a situation where promises were broken.
But you stayed out at the bar
Noting a discrepancy in someone's actions, staying out despite plans.
You're getting cozy with some bitch in your lap
Expressing frustration and jealousy about someone's interaction with another person.
You're snapping pictures in the photo booth
Describing a scene where the ex-partner is engaging in social activities.
I'm so sick of that
Conveying frustration and exhaustion with the partner's behavior.
You know it's bullshit
Acknowledging awareness of a problematic situation.
But I'm so fucking codependent
Admitting a strong emotional dependence despite recognizing issues.
I'll forgive it
Expressing a willingness to forgive despite the challenges.
But when you say I'm all you want
Skepticism towards declarations of affection due to past experiences.
I won't believe it
Lack of belief in reassurances and positive affirmations.
Because I'm calling, and I'm crying, and I'm trying
Attempting to reach out emotionally but facing unresponsiveness.
But I feel nothing and I'm getting used to it
Adapting to emotional numbness as a coping mechanism.
Blacking out because no other feeling hits
Continuation of self-destructive behavior and emotional detachment.
Wishing you would call me up to tell me I'm the shit
Desire for validation and positive affirmation from the ex-partner.
Running circles in my head until I get sick
Repetition of obsessive thoughts and emotional turmoil.
Until I forget you
Struggling to forget and move on from the past, repeating the process.
Paralyzed
Expressing a state of emotional paralysis, feeling stuck.
Paralyzed
Reiteration of emotional paralysis and inability to move forward.
Sometimes I wish I never met you
Expressing regret about the impact meeting the person had on one's life.
I'm curled up in a corner
Describing a physical and emotional withdrawal, seeking solitude.
I think I'll stay here a while
Choosing to remain in a state of emotional withdrawal for a while.
Curled up in a corner
Repetition of the decision to remain withdrawn and introspective.
I think I'll stay here a while
Continuing the contemplative state and adapting to the current emotional condition.
Getting used to it
Acceptance and adaptation to the emotional state, becoming accustomed to it.
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