Morphine
Navigating Shadows: A Journey Through Faith, Love, and Morphine
Lyrics
I can’t help lying to my family about my faith
I admit to deceiving my family about my religious beliefs
It’d break their hearts to know I don’t care if I’m saved
Revealing that my indifference to salvation would hurt them
But old habits die hard and I still half believe
Despite trying to change, I still partially believe in past ideas
That everyone that’s died is basically asleep
Contemplating that the deceased are essentially in a state of sleep
And I can’t listen to my favorite songs anymore
Unable to enjoy my favorite songs anymore
I try to write a song as good, but come up short
Struggling to create a song as good as my favorites
And I’m in love with someone I may never know
Falling in love with someone I may never meet
So I’ll try hard to love somebody else and never let that show
Attempting to love someone else while hiding my true feelings
I’m tryna focus through the morphine
Trying to concentrate despite the influence of morphine
I feel the feeling slip away
Feeling emotions slipping away due to the drug
I’m serious, but they’re all laughing
Serious about my situation, but others find it amusing
And now my guts are on display
Experiencing vulnerability and exposure of inner emotions
I’m finding solace in the temporary pain
Finding comfort in temporary pain as a coping mechanism
Convince myself that every misstep keeps me sane
Convincing myself that mistakes contribute to my sanity
I may not text you back, but I still send my love
Expressing love despite not responding to messages
I learned that all from higher powers up above
Learning life lessons from higher powers
I’m tryna fight off all this morphine
Struggling against the influence of morphine
I’m way too high to try to change
Feeling too intoxicated to attempt change
It wasn’t them, but me who’s laughing
Realizing that the laughter is from oneself, not others
I’m all alone inside this cage
Feeling isolated within personal struggles
The coffee’s out so the nurse brought me lemonade
Receiving lemonade as a substitute for coffee in a hospital
I’m scared to death because they taste the same
Fearful because lemonade and coffee taste similar
Hospital lights flicker like signaling last call
Observing flickering hospital lights, reminiscent of last call
I feel nothing but the end of it all
Feeling numb and perceiving the end approaching
I think they gave me too much morphine
Suspecting an overdose of morphine
And I don’t wanna go this way
Reluctant to face death in this manner
I didn’t think that it’d take dying
Realizing that dying was unexpectedly necessary for inner peace
To finally feel like I’m okay
Finding a sense of well-being in the face of death
At least I feel like I’m okay
Experiencing a sense of acceptance and peace
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