Until Now
Unveiling Shadows: Navigating Concerns in 'Until Now'
Lyrics
"Yes, I know I drink too much", he says
Admission of excessive drinking
"But it's under control
Claiming control over the drinking habit
I've never picked a fight with a stranger
Assertion of non-confrontational behavior
I've had no accidents on the road
No history of accidents while driving under the influence
It doesn't interfere with my work
Drinking doesn't affect professional life
It eases the strain
Drinking as a coping mechanism
I make more money than I ever did
Financial success despite drinking
No one has ever complained"
No complaints received from others
Until Now
Introduction of a turning point in the narrative
And I wonder just what your motivation is
Questioning the speaker's motivation for interference
Until Now
Continued exploration of the turning point
I never thought of you as one who'd meddle in my business
Expressing surprise at the person's involvement
He is not my boyfriend
Clarification of the relationship with the person
He's not related to me
Emphasizing non-familial connection
I have known him for a long, long time
Long acquaintance, but concern arises
I'm worried by what I see
Observation of a worrisome change in behavior
There's a nervous edginess that
Linking edginess to the need for alcohol
Only drinking smoothes
Highlighting alcohol's calming effect
When I question him about this, he says
Challenging the person about their drinking
"What are you tryin' to prove?"
Defensive response to questioning
Until Now
Reiteration of the pivotal moment
I have thought of you as the non-judgemental type
Revision of the perception of the person
Now I see you've been reading too many magazines
Critique of the person's susceptibility to media influence
Believeing all that self-help hype
Disapproval of self-help culture
He's the life of the party
Positive initial portrayal of the person
He's everybody's pal
Describing the person's social demeanor
He used to act like he liked me
Change in the person's attitude towards the speaker
Until Now
Return to the pivotal moment
Now we're waiting for the axe to fall
Anticipation of a negative event
The phone call that shatters the night
Expectation of a distressing phone call
Or maybe he will surprise us all
Possibility of a positive change in behavior
Wake up one day and see the light
Hoping for a sudden realization and improvement
So I'm standing in the shadows
Withdrawal and silent observation
With open eyes and closed mouth
Awareness without vocal expression
Knowing every day that passes
Recognition of the person's deteriorating state
He's farther away from drying out
Fear that time is worsening the person's condition
Until Now
Restating the crucial moment in the narrative
I was able to look the other way
Previous ability to ignore the issue
Until Now
Loss of the ability to ignore the problem
I could pretend that what I thought didn't matter anyway
Acknowledgment of the significance of thoughts
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