Double XP Weekend
Navigating Descent: Collective Ex's Reflection on Life's Futility
Lyrics
You were trying to surface
You attempted to come to the surface.
But surrounding yourself with hands that held you down
You surrounded yourself with people who hindered your progress.
Your lips went down
Your mood or spirit declined.
Blooming from your eyes
Positive growth emerged from your eyes, perhaps signifying tears or emotional release.
The seed was in your mind
An idea or thought took root in your mind.
And there's nothing I can do
The speaker feels helpless in the situation.
Until the tip of my tongue
The speaker's ability to express themselves is compromised.
Was becoming so numb
The numbness is spreading to the speaker's tongue.
I wanna lose it
The speaker desires to let go or lose control.
These words are stupid
The speaker finds the spoken words ineffective or foolish.
The sun is almost dead
A metaphorical reference to a challenging time; the day is almost over.
And I'm still in bed
The speaker is still in bed, possibly indicating a struggle to face the day.
My life feels useless
The speaker feels a sense of purposelessness in life.
Why do I do this
The speaker questions their actions and decisions.
You could live to see twenty
An encouragement to live beyond the age of twenty.
But you can't stand painting all your fears
Despite this encouragement, facing and expressing fears is challenging.
They cleaned your tears
Others have wiped away your tears, but you still feel empty.
And you felt so empty
A sense of speechlessness or inability to comfort.
I couldn't think of anything to say
The speaker couldn't find the right words to make you stay.
To make you stay
Continuation of the struggle to express oneself.
Until the tip of my tongue
The numbness spreads to the tip of the speaker's tongue.
Was becoming so numb
The desire to lose control intensifies.
I wanna lose it
The situation feels absurd or foolish.
It's all so stupid
Rejecting romantic notions and finding them pointless.
Fuck your romantics
Expressing frustration with idealistic and unrealistic behaviors.
All of your antics are abusive
Criticizing manipulative or harmful actions disguised as charming or romantic.
There's no solution
Emphasizing the absence of a clear solution to the problems.
And there's nothing I can do because
The speaker feels powerless and unable to change the situation.
I hate your romantics
Reiteration of disdain for unrealistic romanticism and harmful actions.
All of your antics are abusive
Repeating the critique of manipulative and abusive behaviors in the name of love.
There's no solution
Reemphasizing the lack of a clear solution or resolution.
Instead of your face
A shift in focus from the person's face to the speaker's activities.
I spend my days on double XP Weekends
The speaker spends their time on activities that provide temporary escape or distraction.
End my descent
A plea to end the downward spiral or negative state.
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