Headspace
Navigating the Maze: A Soul's Struggle with Self-Image
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I'm running out of headspace
I feel overwhelmed and crowded mentally.
This routine is killing me
My daily routine is causing significant distress.
I plan out all my calories
I meticulously plan and monitor my food intake.
Then regret what I eat
I feel remorse for what I eat.
I work out every morning
I engage in morning workouts, but it may not be beneficial for my well-being.
But it's not good for my health
Despite working out, it may not be positively impacting my health.
Cuz the minute that I skip it
If I miss a workout, I criticize myself harshly.
I start yelling at myself
Self-criticism intensifies when I skip a workout.
It's been on my mind since I was ten
Concerns about body image have been present since childhood.
Filling every single part of my brain
Body image concerns occupy a significant part of my thoughts.
Now there isn't space left
My mind feels saturated with these concerns.
I could smash the mirror till it's broke
Contemplating destructive actions like breaking a mirror.
Or only wear these baggy clothes
Considering wearing concealing clothing to hide my body.
Or block the whole world on the internet
Contemplating isolating myself from the online world.
I could hide from every camera flash
Thinking of avoiding public exposure to escape judgment.
Keep my head down, turn my back
Keeping a low profile and avoiding attention.
But no matter how hard I try to forget
Despite efforts to forget, body image issues persist.
My body's always in my head
My body image occupies my thoughts constantly.
I avoid going to restaurants
Avoiding social situations like restaurants due to body image concerns.
When I'm with all my friends
Avoiding ordering less than friends to prevent questions.
Cuz I know that they'll ask questions
Anticipating inquiries about my food choices from friends.
If I order less than them
Receiving compliments about looking thin, but it triggers negative thoughts.
It's such a twisted compliment
Feeling conflicted about distorted compliments related to appearance.
Hearing that I look thin
Smiling in response to compliments, but it leads to negative emotions.
And I smile but I know that it only sends me spiraling again
Positive comments about appearance contribute to a downward spiral.
I could smash the mirror till it's broke
Reflecting on destructive actions like breaking a mirror (repeated).
Or only wear these baggy clothes
Considering wearing concealing clothing (repeated).
Or block the whole world on the internet
Contemplating isolating myself online (repeated).
I could hide from every camera flash
Thinking of avoiding public exposure (repeated).
Keep my head down, turn my back
Keeping a low profile (repeated).
But no matter how hard I try to forget
Despite efforts to forget, body image issues persist (repeated).
My body's always in my head
My body image occupies my thoughts constantly (repeated).
Ahhhh
Expressing inner turmoil with a vocalization (Ahhhh).
Ahhhh
Continuing the vocal expression of inner turmoil (Ahhhh).
(Why is it always in my head?)
Questioning why body image concerns persist in thoughts.
Oooo
Expressing ongoing struggle that hasn't been overcome (Oooo).
It's just something I haven't overcome yet
Acknowledging the constant presence of body image in thoughts.
My body's always in my head
Reiterating the persistent nature of body image issues.
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