Lyrics
I'm about to talk about what's up in my dome
I am about to share my inner thoughts and struggles.
It's hard to speak, figured I'd let you all know
Expressing difficulty in verbalizing emotions, choosing to inform everyone.
A couple years I've been fighting with my demons alone
Fighting personal demons for a couple of years in isolation.
They come to haunt when I'm asleep in the cold, like
Demons haunting during sleep in the cold, metaphorically challenging times.
When I'm asleep in the cold
Reiteration of the haunting during sleep in the cold.
That bar has sunken deeper than I'd wish you to know
The emotional burden has deepened more than one would want others to know.
I know I always talk in riddles Edward Nigma would solve
Talking in riddles, referencing a fictional character who solves puzzles.
I'd just prefer to fake a grin but I don't Vincent van Gogh
Expressing a preference for hiding true feelings, contrasting with an artist known for expressing emotions.
If addiction ain't a sickness why am I sick and at home
Questioning the nature of addiction and its impact on well-being.
Where the fuck are all my friends when I need 'em the most
Expressing a sense of abandonment by friends during a time of need.
Who the fuck you try'na kid? we're all in the same boat
Challenging the pretense of pretending everything is okay when facing shared struggles.
And who the fuck are you to say that I don't love when you loath, like
Rejecting judgments about one's capacity for love during difficult times.
Man these past couple months, I've been NOTHING but stressed
Recent months have been filled with intense stress.
To top it OFF, I'm a mess, 'cause when you're DEAD, well you're DEAD
Highlighting the chaotic state, emphasizing the finality of death.
Swear the DEVIL is next, if it wasn't for this red I painted up on my head
Symbolizing inner turmoil with references to the devil and self-harm.
I'd down a six but you know me too well
Resisting destructive behavior despite personal struggles.
I'd down the six and then it's onto to the well
Continuation of internal conflict, contemplating darker choices.
I drown in piss whatchu know about hell?
Metaphorically drowning in negative experiences.
It's hard knowing I need help but having noone to tell
Recognizing the need for help but feeling alone in seeking support.
Yeah, I'm playing with death, no food in my gut, I'm a mess
Engaging in risky behaviors while dealing with hunger and chaos.
I'm fucking depressed, drinking a six and popping a ferg
Openly admitting to depression, combining substance abuse as a coping mechanism.
I swear that I'm fucked as it gets but y'all still call me a pest
Feeling messed up but facing criticism from others.
And I remain with this stress,
Persistent stress in life.
Cause I remind myself of you and how we share an expense
Linking personal stress to a shared experience and financial burden.
And even though we share the pain well I was so fucking dense
Reflecting on personal shortcomings in understanding and empathy.
Cause when you needed me the most I was busy with my next
Regret for not being there when needed, acknowledging past mistakes.
It's like I'm hung from my neck, seems the only way to cope is to joke of these regrets, uh
Coping with stress through humor and self-deprecation.
And I'm still stuck with this debt, and all my actions ain't provided me with a means to an end
Facing consequences of actions without finding a solution.
But I'm too drunk for this SHIT, I swear you only seem to call when I'm fucking throwing a FIT
Expressing frustration with external interactions during emotional distress.
So don't BLAME me when I'm mad 'cause you're intentions have changed a bit
Defending emotional reactions, blaming changed intentions of others.
I'm TIRED of pretending that you care 'cause I'm AFRAID TO QUIT
Tired of pretending that others care, expressing fear of giving up.
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