Lyrics
Stare out thru my window
Reflecting on life, looking outside through the window.
Im searching for something
Expressing a search for something meaningful.
I know your out there
Awareness of someone's presence or existence.
Don't run away
Requesting someone not to run away, indicating a desire for connection.
Its a quarter after one
Noting the time, possibly late, and feeling a sense of loneliness.
Why do i always feel alone
Expressing a recurring feeling of being alone.
Disappointed idk what to do
Feeling disappointed and uncertain about what to do.
Or where it all went wrong
Reflecting on where things went wrong.
Im a mess
Acknowledging personal struggles and chaos.
I hope i clean it up one day
Hopeful for personal improvement in the future.
Cuz im so stressed
Expressing stress and disappointment with oneself.
And disappointed in myself
Continuing to express disappointment and self-reflection.
I push away
Pushing away those who love, resulting in complex emotions.
Everyone that love don't stay i feel a million ways
Feeling a multitude of emotions due to relationships.
Everyday the same i wanna die
Expressing a desire to escape from a monotonous and painful existence.
Don't look at me amazed
Rejecting admiration, suggesting a lack of understanding from others.
That mean you aint hearing me
Feeling unheard and misunderstood.
My aunt keep calling asking me if i'm okay
Family concern for well-being, potentially avoiding the truth.
Ill lie right to her face
Admitting to lying about personal well-being.
But i'm miles on miles away
Physically distant from others, creating emotional distance.
I fake a smile like i'm okay
Putting on a facade of happiness despite inner struggles.
Yesterday is not today
Acknowledging the passage of time and the persistence of feelings.
But i feel the same as i did last week
Expressing a sense of stagnation and lack of progress.
And i'm on my knees yeah oh
In a vulnerable state, possibly praying or seeking help.
Begging out to the lord that he hear me now
Pleading to a higher power for attention and understanding.
I know we never talk a lot but your on speed dial
Noting a lack of communication, emphasizing the need for connection.
I told my dad that i loved him last week
Expressing love to a parent but feeling hurt by their lack of response.
And i cant even get a reply that hurts me
Feeling emotional pain due to a lack of response from a loved one.
I feel like i'm so fucking dumb & irks me
Feeling frustrated and self-critical.
When i was young i thought this world was for me
Reflecting on childhood perceptions of the world.
But i was naive and narcissistic
Admitting to past naivety and self-centeredness.
Even if i died you wouldn't miss this
Expressing a sense of worthlessness, suggesting thoughts of self-harm.
Can somebody tell me
Seeking understanding or answers from others.
Is there something out there oh
Expressing awareness of an unhealthy situation or mindset.
I know this aint healthy
Acknowledging an unhealthy coping mechanism as the only known way.
But its the only way i know
Expressing a need for assistance from someone else.
I need someone to help me
Reiterating the need for external help.
Cause its the only way i know
Reaffirming the limited understanding of alternatives.
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