Trying
Navigating the Depths: Michael Barzach's Emotional Journey in 'Trying'
Lyrics
I find I'm always lying to myself
I frequently deceive myself.
I say I'm fine
I claim everything is okay.
Been 15 years of breaking down
For 15 years, I've been experiencing emotional breakdowns.
It's probably time
It's likely the right time to address these issues.
We gotta go further
We need to move forward.
I know it's best to go further, but I'm
Despite knowing it's better to move forward, I'm hesitant.
Sitting here in silence
I'm currently in a state of quiet contemplation.
Searching for words that slip away
Struggling to find words that elude my grasp.
It's always spinning me in circles
Life's challenges constantly bring me in circles.
Blank and numb through my face
Feeling emotionally detached and expressionless.
How could you even notice
Questioning the ability of others to perceive my inner struggles.
When I'm dying inside
Experiencing internal suffering unnoticed by others.
I know that it hurts you
Acknowledging that my pain affects those around me.
And I'm trying
Making an effort to overcome difficulties.
I know that we've been sitting here too long
Recognizing that we've spent too much time in a stagnant state.
There's room left to grow
There's still potential for personal growth.
Wait what we were talking about
Unable to recall the subject of our conversation.
Can't feel at home
Feeling out of place and disconnected.
And I know it's on me
Accepting responsibility for the situation.
Simple to feel that it's not on me but I'm
Despite knowing it's not solely my fault, I feel accountable.
Sitting here in silence
Engaged in introspective silence.
Searching for words that slip away
Struggling to articulate thoughts that escape me.
It's always spinning me in circles
Caught in a cycle of confusion and uncertainty.
Blank and numb through my face
Emotionally detached and expressionless once again.
I've always written boundless
Consistently writing extensive letters that remain undiscovered.
Letters you'll never find
Unspoken thoughts and emotions that may never be revealed.
And we should probably talk about
Suggesting the need for a conversation to escape the current situation.
To get us out of here
Exploring ways to break free from the current state of being.
There's all these scripts inside my mind
Mentally burdened by various predetermined responses.
I need to let em go and say the things that I truly feel
Expressing a need to let go of scripts and speak genuinely.
I've always written boundless
Reiteration of the act of writing unrevealed letters.
Letters you'll never find
Unspoken thoughts and emotions that may never be revealed.
And we should probably talk about
Suggesting the need for a conversation to escape the current situation.
To get us out of here
Exploring ways to break free from the current state of being.
There's all these scripts inside my mind
Mentally burdened by various predetermined responses.
I need to let em go and say the things that I truly feel
Expressing a need to let go of scripts and speak genuinely.
How could you even notice
Questioning the ability of others to perceive my inner struggles.
When I'm dying inside
Experiencing internal suffering unnoticed by others.
I know that it hurts you
Acknowledging that my pain affects those around me.
And I'm trying
Making an effort to overcome difficulties.
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