Addicted
Addicted Despair: A Soul Trapped in the Echoes of a Loaded Conscience
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I bought myself a gun
Feeling a desire to have control or power by acquiring a firearm
Just to feel what it's like to pull the trigger
Exploring the sensation of pulling the trigger, possibly metaphorical for seeking a release or catharsis
I hide it under my pillow
Keeping the gun hidden under the pillow, suggesting a secretive or personal struggle
And pull it out every night before I go to bed
Routinely confronting the firearm before bedtime, indicating a persistent internal conflict
I just want to write a clean page
Desiring a fresh start or a positive change in life
But I am trapped inside this wheel that won't stop spinning around
Feeling stuck in a repetitive cycle or routine that seems unending
When will I get out of here
Expressing a longing for liberation from the current situation
I bought myself a gun
Repeating the act of acquiring a gun, possibly indicating a continued search for control
Shot it off too many times now I can't help myself
Using the firearm excessively, becoming addicted to its impact
I threw it in the river
Discarding the gun, attempting to break free from the destructive cycle
But the current brings it back to my feet
Facing the return of the gun, suggesting the persistence of inner struggles
I just want to write a clean page
Desiring a fresh start or a positive change, despite the challenges
But I am trapped inside this wheel that won't stop spinning around
Continuing to feel trapped in a cycle that refuses to end
When will I get out of here
Expressing impatience and a desire for escape
I bought myself a gun
Repeating the theme of acquiring a gun, possibly reflecting a recurring struggle
Now I don't know what to do with myself
Feeling lost and uncertain after gaining the desired control
I keep digging in deeper
Engaging in self-destructive behavior or habits, digging deeper into problems
I'm drowning myself now and I can't think straight
Suffering the consequences of one's actions, feeling overwhelmed and disoriented
I just want to write a clean page
Desiring a fresh start or a positive change, despite the persistent challenges
But I am trapped inside this wheel that won't stop spinning around
Continuing to feel trapped in a cycle that seems unending
When will I get out of here
Expressing a sense of urgency and impatience for freedom
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