Lyrics
Been a hot minute we ain't speak
It has been a significant amount of time since we last communicated.
Been a little while we ain't fought
It's been a while since we had a disagreement or argument.
Guess you doing better than the last time we met up
Seems like you're doing better compared to the last time we met, where you avoided getting emotionally involved.
When you ran away from feelings getting caught
Referring to a previous instance when emotions led you to run away from confronting them.
Why you always got to get a grip
Why do you always have to maintain control?
When you ever gonna let it slip
When will you allow yourself to be vulnerable or show weakness?
Bottle up your pride never drinking what's inside
You keep your pride intact, never expressing what's truly inside.
But when you ever gonna sip a thought
When will you open up and share your inner thoughts?
Why you always gotta make a split
Why do you always create divisions or conflicts?
What you say and how you feel don't ever fit
Your words and your emotions seem to be out of sync.
Ain't nobody watching, you can lay away the caution
There's no one watching, so it's safe to let go of caution and express yourself.
This the perfect opportunity to vent
This is an ideal moment to release pent-up emotions.
Say it while we're sitting in the dark
Suggesting a conversation taking place in the dark, a private and intimate setting.
You don't need nobody else to talk
You don't need anyone else; it's a time for self-reflection and expression.
Talking to myself and my brain spoke back
Having a conversation with oneself, perhaps indicating internal struggles.
When you finish trying to block
Once you stop trying to block your emotions.
I'll be waiting on you
Waiting for you to open up emotionally.
On the outside
On the outside, implying an emotional distance.
After last call
After the last call, suggesting a period of reflection or contemplation.
Chat with I, myself and me
Engaging in a conversation with oneself.
I never stop to asked what helping needs
Not pausing to ask for assistance or help.
It works for me and I don't work at it
The approach is working without conscious effort, like a habit.
Like some type of service to curve a habit
Comparing the self-help method to a service that helps overcome a habit.
Don't believe in magic shirts and sleeves
Disbelief in quick fixes or magical solutions.
Rabbits and such as luck would have it
Referencing luck and chance as factors in one's life.
I am one of many to converse the tragic
Being one of many who discuss tragic events or experiences.
And pride myself in the worst of me
Taking pride in acknowledging and addressing one's flaws.
That's a vital part in the art of blackness
Recognizing the importance of embracing one's darker aspects in the context of black identity.
We don't get depressed we compress the sadness
Choosing to compress sadness rather than succumb to depression.
Feeling anyway about a day's a privilege
Considering each day a privilege, irrespective of feelings.
Conversing to the Doc to get expensive answers
Seeking expensive answers through conversations with a professional.
Never visible but I could fill a room
Although not visible, having a significant impact on the surroundings.
With people of the sun who run away from feeling gloom
Surrounded by people who avoid negative feelings.
Anger is an illness that I'm tired of containing
Acknowledging the struggle of containing anger as an illness.
That's why my mind's saying
Explaining the mental exhaustion from managing suppressed anger.
I'll be waiting on you
Continuing to wait for emotional openness.
On the outside
On the outside, maintaining a distance emotionally.
After last call
After the last call, indicating a period of reflection or contemplation.
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