Survivor's Guilt
Survivor's Reflection: Finding Purpose Amidst Unanswered Questions
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You tell me I'm here for a reason
You reassure me that there's a purpose for my existence
That I survived to go on and tell my story
I survived a situation to share my experience
Here I am and I'm still breathing
I am present and alive
Still standing on my own two feet
I'm still standing on my own, enduring
There are children out there who are dying
There are young ones facing mortality
They don't know something's wrong with them
They aren't aware of their condition
Didn't even get to live out their lives
They didn't have the chance to live their lives fully
And here I am young healthy and strong
Meanwhile, I am youthful, healthy, and robust
But why oh why why me?
I question why I was spared
What did I do to deserve this?
I wonder what I did to merit this situation
Been selfish I've been stupid
I've acted selfishly and foolishly
Guess it's all a part of hurting
Perhaps this suffering is a consequence of my actions
Got so many more years left to go
I have many more years ahead
Are those years a gift from those angels?
Are these additional years a gift from those who didn't make it?
I bet those kids would have turned out amazing
I speculate the children who passed away would've had remarkable lives
And here I am standing in their place
And yet, I'm here, occupying the space they could've had
There are children out there who are dying
Again, there are young ones facing mortality
They don't know somethings wrong with them
They remain unaware of their condition
Here I am living out my own story
While I am living through my own narrative
When they wont ever get to see theirs end
But those children won't experience the end of their stories
But why oh why why me?
I continue to question why I was spared
What did I do to deserve this?
What actions led to my deserving this situation?
Been selfish I've been stupid
Reflecting on my selfish and foolish behavior
Guess it's all a part of hurting
Perhaps this suffering is a result of that behavior
But why oh why why me?
Still, I question why I was spared
What did I do to deserve this?
What did I do to merit this situation?
Been selfish I've been stupid
Reflecting on my selfish and foolish behavior
Guess it's all a part of hurting
Perhaps this suffering is a result of that behavior
Everything I do it works out well
Everything I do turns out well
Is that from pity or do I deserve it?
Am I successful due to pity or do I genuinely deserve it?
The praise that I receive
The praise I receive, is it truly meant for me?
Is it really meant for me?
Questioning the authenticity of the praise
Why do I deserve this?
Why do I merit this?
But why oh why why me?
Continuing to question why I was spared
What did i do to deserve this?
What actions led to my deserving this situation?
Been selfish I've been stupid
Reflecting on my selfish and foolish behavior
Guess it's all a part of hurting
Perhaps this suffering is a result of that behavior
But why oh why why me?
Still questioning why I was spared
What did i do to deserve this?
What actions led to my deserving this situation?
Been selfish I've been stupid
Reflecting on my selfish and foolish behavior
Guess it's all a part of hurting
Perhaps this suffering is a result of that behavior
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