The Grey
Shades of Ambiguity: Inner Struggles and Unanswered Questions
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Some things are best left to slowly fade away
Some things are better left to fade slowly over time.
Others are better to rinse and then repeat
Some things benefit from repetition and cleansing.
The latter three pose apathy if you're just feigning happily
Continuing with certain actions without true emotional involvement can lead to apathy despite outward happiness.
Ever and after
Continuing cycles repeatedly.
You'll suffer again
Predicting experiencing suffering again in the future.
I have been feeling so grey
Feeling emotionally neutral or detached.
For leaving this behind
Regret for leaving something behind.
Collateral seems to plague the blank space convoluting my mind
Feeling overwhelmed by the consequences affecting thoughts and emotions.
I crawled out from under the table Inspecting my wounds and inner thigh
Physically emerging from a difficult situation and examining wounds and personal damage.
Lying would say that I'm stable
Being dishonest by claiming stability when unstable.
I'm unable to breathe in all my trampled pride
Feeling incapable of restoring self-esteem after being emotionally hurt.
And exhale my malleable inside
Releasing internal emotions that are easily influenced or changed.
I am becoming unable to be saved unscathed from this
Feeling unable to escape a situation without harm.
Looking within I tried for hours to shake my inner ties with hatred
Attempting to free oneself from internal feelings of hatred.
In this nature I feel so ambiguous
Feeling uncertain about one's own nature or identity.
I just can't control myself
Losing control of oneself.
Weathered from absent health
Having endured health issues.
And restraint from the shelf in the shed
Restraining or holding back emotions from being exposed.
I just can't control myself
Feeling unable to control oneself.
Medicate under stars and in stealth
Using medication secretly under the cover of darkness.
These trees beckon me to start afresh and turn a leaf
Feeling urged to make a fresh start, possibly influenced by surroundings.
Watching my wounds divide
Witnessing one's own emotional wounds intensify.
Stranded here helpless while you decide if my being can withstand this fable
Feeling stranded and vulnerable while someone else determines if one can endure a challenging situation.
That was sold as prosperous
Realizing that a promised prosperous outcome was actually a falsehood.
Looking within I tried for hours to sever my inner ties with hatred
Attempting to break internal emotional ties with hatred.
In this nature I feel so ambiguous
Feeling uncertain or conflicted about one's nature.
I console myself
Seeking comfort or reassurance within oneself.
As I lay on the floor
Reaching a point of vulnerability and realization of innocence.
I realise now that I am innocent
Understanding one's own innocence without additional attributes.
Nothing more
Recognizing a lack of self-identification beyond innocence.
The wind outside it rocks me to sleep
Feeling soothed by natural elements outside.
I find beauty in my deepest dreams
Finding beauty and solace within one's deepest dreams.
They paint a picture that I shouldn't live here
Imagining a life away from the current, undesirable situation.
So why do I stay
Questioning why staying in an undesirable situation despite the desire to leave.
I don't know why I stay
Expressing uncertainty about the reasons for remaining in an undesirable situation.
They paint a picture that I shouldn't live here
Reiterating the conflict between the painted image of an undesirable situation and the actual choice to remain.
So why do I still stay
Expressing continued uncertainty about the reasons for remaining.
I don't know why I stay
Repeating uncertainty about the reasons for staying despite a perceived undesirable situation.
They paint a picture that I shouldn't live here
Repeating the conflict between the painted image of an undesirable situation and the actual choice to remain.
So why do I still stay
Reiterating uncertainty about the reasons for staying despite the perception of an undesirable situation.
Watching my wounds divide
Observing the intensification of emotional wounds.
Stranded here helpless while you decide if my being can withstand this fable
Feeling helpless and dependent on another's judgment regarding endurance in a difficult situation.
That was sold as prosperous
Recognizing that a promised prosperous outcome was actually a falsehood.
Looking within I tried for hours to sever my inner ties with hatred
Attempting to sever internal emotional ties with hatred.
In this nature I feel so ambiguous
Feeling uncertain or conflicted about one's nature.
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