Tracing Veins
Echoes of Desolation: Tracing Veins in Silence
Lyrics
I take nothing from this
I derive no benefit or satisfaction from this situation or experience.
I walk away holding air
I leave, metaphorically empty-handed, without tangible results or gains.
Just barely in my lungs
I'm barely surviving, with a minimal amount of life in my lungs.
Aspirating blood
Inhaling blood due to the act of trying to breathe in difficult or painful circumstances.
From choking on these memories of fantasies
Suffering from memories of unrealized dreams and desires, causing difficulty in breathing.
That there will be a light for me
An expression of hope for a positive change or solution in the future.
There will be no light in this hollow
There is no illumination or hope in this emptiness or void.
There will be no voice for me to follow
There is no guidance or support for me to follow in this situation.
Past that damage and regret
Beyond the harm and sorrow, moving past the consequences of past actions.
Past the fired I could not set
Referring to missed opportunities or failed attempts that could have had a significant impact.
To tell myself that I'm alive
A reminder to acknowledge one's existence despite challenges.
Give me a reason to survive
A plea for a compelling reason to continue living and enduring the hardships.
What does it matter now
An inquiry into the relevance or importance of current circumstances.
If this will ever happen
Questioning the likelihood of positive changes occurring in the future.
Why would you even care
Raising doubt about the concern or interest of others in the speaker's struggles.
That I have sunk so low
Expressing a sense of reaching a low point or feeling deeply down.
What does it matter now
Repeating the question about the significance of current circumstances.
If I won't live to see this
Contemplating the possibility of not surviving to witness future events.
Why would you even care
Questioning the interest or concern of others when the speaker is no longer present to cause them guilt.
When I'm not there to burden you with guilt
Highlighting the burden the speaker feels they are to others in their absence.
Tracing veins upon my skin
Metaphorically tracing veins on the skin, possibly alluding to self-harm or the visible signs of inner pain.
And holding in my every scream to just a whisper
Suppressing intense emotions, holding back screams to a mere whisper.
Choked back to just a ghost of a real emotion
Struggling with diminished emotional expression, reduced to a ghostly semblance of real feelings.
And everything's inside
Alluding to intense emotions or turmoil being contained within, behind the speaker's eyes.
Boiling just behind my eyes
Emphasizing the internal turmoil boiling just beneath the surface.
Everything's inside
Reiterating that everything the speaker is experiencing is internal, not visible to others.
Boiling just behind my eyes
Repeating the idea of internal turmoil boiling behind the speaker's eyes.
But they're too dry to open
Describing the eyes as too dry to open, possibly symbolizing emotional numbness or inability to perceive.
And you're too blind to notice
Expressing a perception that others are oblivious or indifferent to the speaker's inner struggles.
But what does it matter now
Raising the question of the significance of the current situation, considering the preceding experiences.
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