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I watch the raindrops drip down my window
Observing raindrops running down the windowpane
No one really knows why I have been low
Feeling down without anyone understanding the reason
I know they won't care, even if they did know
Belief that even if others knew, they wouldn't care
Yeah, I know that's how the story goes
Acknowledging this as the expected course of events
I always say live it up, but I'ma keep it real
Usually advocates for living life fully, but now being honest
At times life gets rough, and I don't know how to feel
Admitting uncertainty in handling tough times emotionally
When life gets tough, I let God take the wheel
Relinquishing control to a higher power during challenges
I pray everyday, hoping that I can heal
Seeking healing through daily prayers
I don't hide emotions
Doesn't conceal feelings
But I'm still not open
Still struggles to be truly open about emotions
Cry, but haven't spoken
Has cried but hasn't verbally expressed emotions
My words staying frozen
Words remain unspoken and emotions retained
Almost like a potion
Emotions seem potent or influential like a potion
Can't handle commotion
Dislikes disturbances or upheavals
Yet, my thoughts in motion
Despite the stillness, thoughts continue actively
Moving fast like oceans
Thoughts move swiftly like vast oceans
Why do people never let me be by myself?
Feeling bothered by the lack of personal space
Why do people think they know me, before they know themself?
Questioning why people judge without self-awareness
Why did they hate on me back when I was twelve?
Recalling past experiences of being disliked
How do people know I've been stressed? I thought it was hard to tell
Surprised by others recognizing stress without obvious signs
That was sarcastic
Indicates sarcasm
I let emotions out, 'cause they're not plastic
Expressing genuine emotions, not artificial
I try to lie saying I am fantastic
Attempts to falsely portray being fantastic
But we know that our lives can be tragic
Acknowledging life's potential for tragedy
Feelings don't disappear, that would be magic
Emotions persist, can't just vanish magically
We make mistakes, but we gotta live past it
Encourages learning from mistakes and moving forward
Learn from it, then just put it in the past tense
Reflecting on experiences and moving beyond them
Learn to have feelings, 'cause they're not elastic
Feelings shouldn't be suppressed as they aren't stretchable
And I don't know why I lose track of time
Gets caught up in thoughts, losing sense of time
I am too worried about what is on my mind
Overwhelmed by personal thoughts and worries
I bottle up, and pretend it's gonna be fine
Keeps emotions hidden, hoping things will improve
But that won't fly
Realization that hiding emotions won't solve problems
It's just a lie
Admission that pretending is deceptive and futile
Bottle up my emotions inside
Suppressing emotions internally
I can't even count how many times I wanna hide
Desire to conceal feelings and withdraw
Too much stress that I can't take it sometimes
Overwhelmed by stress at times
I try my best to push through, even when I cry
Striving to persist despite emotional struggles
I watch the raindrops drip down my window
Reiteration of observing raindrops on the window
No one really knows why I have been low
Reiterating feelings of being low without comprehension
I know they won't care, even if they did know
Expectation that even if known, others won't care
Yeah, I know that's how the story goes
Acceptance of this recurring pattern in life
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