Lyrics
It's not for attention
Expressing that the action is not seeking attention.
It's not for your pity
Clarifying it's not about seeking pity from others.
I'm tired of myself
Feeling exhausted or fed up with oneself.
And sick of feeling shitty
Expressing being tired of feeling terrible or low.
Wont answer your questions
Declining to respond to inquiries or queries.
Not after your mercy
Not seeking or expecting compassion.
Just need a way out
Desiring an escape from a distressing mindset.
Of this awful mentality
Wanting to break free from a negative mentality.
Ivory cane
Referencing an ivory cane, symbolizing authority or control.
Which you wield so desperately
Someone wielding power or control desperately.
Don't talk to me
Requesting not to engage in conversation.
And don't speak of inability
Asking not to discuss or mention incapability.
Scholarly reasons
Mentioning reasons that are scholarly but disregarding personal care.
You care not about me
Implying a lack of genuine concern or care from another person.
And I am just a rat
Feeling like an object of study or observation without empathy.
I'm your brand new case study
Being portrayed as a fresh subject for analysis.
Hopefully I can get out of this space
Hoping to find a way out of the current mental state or situation.
Everything is white
Describing an environment filled with whiteness, possibly representing sterility or oppression.
It blinds like artillery
Comparing the intensity of whiteness to the blinding effect of artillery.
Tiny gray lady
Referring to someone small or insignificant who shouldn't judge.
Don't look at my flaws
Asking not to focus on personal shortcomings.
Don't shout them right back
Requesting not to vocalize or highlight one's flaws.
Ill stumble ill fall
Expressing a likelihood of making mistakes or faltering.
I say that I'm busy
Claiming to be occupied, though not actually busy.
But I'm not at all
Admitting that being busy is not the case.
Its never that easy
Acknowledging that it's not simple or straightforward.
I don't have the gall
Expressing a lack of courage or boldness.
Ill quit at the first chance
Planning to quit or escape at the earliest opportunity.
Ill make for the door
Intending to leave abruptly through a door.
And you'll watch it happen
Imagining others observing the departure with shock or horror.
And you'll watch appalled
Anticipating the shocked reaction of onlookers during the departure.
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