Ditches
Journey Through Life's Ditches: A Tale of Redemption and Self-Discovery
Lyrics
I got these stomach knots I can't untie
I am experiencing intense anxiety or unease.
Scared to take another step without falling
I'm hesitant to move forward due to the fear of failure.
Don't know if it's me I hate
I'm uncertain if I dislike myself or regret my past decisions.
Or all the fucked-up choices that I have made
I regret the choices I've made in my life.
I'm so desperate for a home
I yearn for a sense of belonging or stability.
But I can't stop myself from running
Despite the desire for a home, I keep running away.
I get wasted and I'll hide away
I turn to substance abuse to cope and withdraw from others.
After 25 years
Reflecting on 25 years of life.
Through my jaded bitter edge
I have a cynical and hardened perspective.
Just dry your tears
Encouraging someone to stop crying and move forward.
Cause there more to life
Life has more to offer than just proving one's worth.
Proving that you're worth a damn
Challenging the need to prove oneself to others.
When you've always been good enough
Self-acceptance, recognizing inherent worth.
I baptized my sins
I acknowledge and seek forgiveness for my sins.
In the sweat of my sobriety
I confront and endure the challenges of sobriety.
Of lonesome nights I spent by your side
Reflecting on lonely nights spent with someone.
The madness it lingers
The impact of madness persists.
Fragile framework of a stranger
Describing oneself as a fragile and unknown entity.
Just carve another notch
Add another difficulty or challenge to my life.
Into this growing weary face
The toll of experiences visible on my tired face.
The fingerprints of innocence
Innocence tainted by selfish lies.
Now laced with selfish lies
Time for self-pity has expired.
The time has run up
A realization that self-pity is no longer justified.
To feel sorry for yourself
A long period spent taking care of oneself.
I've spent so long
Reflection on 25 years of life experiences.
Holding my own two hands
Maintaining self-reliance and independence.
After 25 years
Continuation of reflection on 25 years with bitterness.
Through my jaded bitter edge
Having a cynical and hardened perspective.
But not everyone's cruel
Not everyone in life is unkind or trying to harm you.
Not everyone's trying to hurt you
A reminder that not everyone is malicious.
Proving that you're worth a damn
Reiterating the idea of proving self-worth without external validation.
When you've always been good enough
Emphasizing inherent self-worth.
After 25 years
Reflecting on 25 years of life.
I've traveled these roads
Recalling the journeys and experiences of life.
Let my grave lay in between these ditches
Choosing a final resting place between life's challenges.
And carry me home
A plea to be carried home after facing life's difficulties.
Carry me home
A repetition of the plea to be carried home.
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