Lyrics
All this pain up in my chest it got me soul searching
All this pain in my chest has led me to introspection and self-discovery.
Doing drugs but getting high just ain't the sole purpose
Using drugs to get high isn't the sole purpose; there's a deeper meaning to life.
Stayin' down, had to evolve behind those closed curtains
Overcoming challenges behind closed curtains, evolving to become a better person.
Just tryna play this game of life but make my own version
Trying to navigate life uniquely, creating a personal version of the game of life.
Think I'm straight, but that heartbreak still got my soul hurtin'
Despite appearing okay, the lingering effects of heartbreak are still emotionally painful.
Escaped depression, but anxiety at home lurkin'
Managed to escape depression, but anxiety continues to affect life at home.
Put my emotions in this music, swear it's soul purging
Expressing emotions through music as a form of catharsis and self-purification.
Used to keep 'em bottled up, I think I broke surface
Transitioning from bottling up emotions to breaking the surface and expressing them.
Thinking, "Where'd the time go?"
Reflecting on the passage of time and wondering where it has gone.
Feel like yesterday when you were crackin' bad jokes (Damn)
Reminiscing about the past when joyful moments were shared through humor.
And no I don't see your ghost
Acknowledging the absence of a physical presence but feeling the person in dreams.
Just see you when dreaming, can't see you when woke, yeah
The addictive allure of a fragrance, drawing a parallel to the addictive nature of substances.
Fragrance addictive like coke, yeah
Initial warmth in the heart transformed into a cold, possibly distant, feeling.
Made my heart warm, now it's frozen
The inevitable challenges (thorns) accompany the beauty (rose) in life.
Thorns always come with the rose
Offering choices, but the other person made a specific, possibly regrettable, decision.
Gave you them options, but baby you chose this
Entering a period of emotional darkness, likened to Darth Vader's character.
Going dark like I'm D. Vader
Promising to overcome pain, postponing the resolution for a later time.
Gon' come up off this pain, but that scene later
Embracing solitude with financial success as a companion, distancing from societal expectations.
Now just me and my green paper
Choosing personal identity over conformity, abandoning the desire to fit in.
'Cause I'm done tryna fit-in like jean tapers
Offering support to others in need, being a reliable source for leaning on.
Hit me if you need baby
Recalling thoughts about a person while under the influence of substances.
I'm someone if you need one to lean baby
Coping with emotional coldness, symbolized by puffing up steam.
Thought of you when I was rolling off that bean baby
Repetition of lines 1-22.
Treated my so cold, why I'm puffing up that steam crazy
Repeating the chorus, emphasizing the ongoing emotional struggle and search for meaning.
All this pain up in my chest it got me soul searching
Repeating the chorus.
Doing drugs but getting high just ain't the sole purpose
-Stayin' down, had to evolve behind those closed curtains
-Just tryna play this game of life but make my own version
-Think I'm straight, but that heartbreak still got my soul hurtin'
-Escaped depression, but anxiety at home lurkin'
-Put my emotions in this music, swear it's soul purging
-Used to keep 'em bottled up, I think I broke surface
-Thinking, "Where'd the time go?"
-Feel like yesterday when you were crackin' bad jokes (Damn)
-And no I don't see your ghost
-Just see you when dreaming, can't see you when woke, yeah
-Fragrance addictive like coke, yeah
-Made my heart warm, now it's frozen
-Thorns always come with the rose
-Gave you them options, but baby you chose this...
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