Split
Emotional Conflict Unveiled: Lindsay Munroe's 'Split'
Lyrics
I’ve taken everything that I believe
I've embraced my beliefs entirely
And sewn it to my sleeve
I've displayed them openly, like a badge on my sleeve
So I can finally breathe
This act allows me to finally find relief
There was a sickness in the ground you see
A problem or negativity permeated the environment
From roots up to the leaves
From the foundation to the highest points
Right through the heart of me
Penetrating through the core of my being
But I can’t love you when I’m so ashamed
I can't express love when burdened by shame
I split myself in two every time
I constantly divide myself to avoid conflict
I toed the line
Adhering to the rules, even if it means avoiding confrontation
Just to skip a fight
Choosing evasion over engaging in a struggle
It’s in the silver pieces of my shame
My shame is scattered in silver pieces
I find myself again
In these fragments, I rediscover my true self
I yearn to be contained
I long for containment and stability
But I can’t love you when I’m so afraid
Love is hindered by overwhelming fear
And I can’t love you when I’m so ashamed
Shame prevents me from expressing love
It’s in the beating of my heart that tells me
The heartbeat signals a realization or truth
It’s in the way that I can’t wait to leave
The anticipation of departure is evident
It’s in the way that I can’t even pray without feeling it’ll all get swept away
I struggle to pray without fearing loss
There’s someone sitting on my chest
A metaphorical weight on my chest, possibly emotional baggage
There’s someone waiting at the door
Sense of anticipation or apprehension at the door
There’s someone telling me that I can’t be alone with you anymore
External forces dictate that I can't be alone with someone
But I can’t love you when I’m so afraid
Fear continues to obstruct the expression of love
And I can’t love you when I’m so ashamed
Shame remains a barrier to love
And I can’t love you
Reiteration of the inability to love due to various constraints
And I can’t love you
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