Lyrics
It's four in the morning, I still cant get to sleep
Struggling to sleep at 4 AM, indicating emotional turmoil.
If time heals scars then why am I left to bleed
Questioning the effectiveness of time in healing emotional wounds, feeling left to suffer.
All that stress from the past started affecting my dreams
Past stress affecting dreams, reflecting on the impact of past experiences.
And I keep thinking if those things never happened would I be me
Contemplating identity and whether life events shape who the person has become.
She don't like to see me like this I won't hate if she leaves
A partner's discomfort with the singer's emotional state, potential strain on the relationship.
I won't blame her she's been patient for the way that its been
Acknowledging the partner's patience despite the difficult situation.
Coz lately I turned into something I don't want to be
Expressing dissatisfaction with personal transformation.
All this stress gets to my head thats why you barely see me speak
Stress impacting communication and social interaction.
I stay cautious coz this shit is really not what it seems
Cautiousness due to a sense of deception or hidden aspects of reality.
The only time I see my mates is when they're coppin' some weed
Isolation and limited social interaction, primarily involving drug-related activities.
So when they come around I'm actin like i'm off in a dream
Acting detached when with friends, possibly to escape reality.
I don't want to be another number locked by police
Fear of legal consequences and the desire to avoid becoming a statistic.
I hit the legs before they're getting what I've got in my jeans
Engaging in illegal activities to survive or thrive.
My sixth offence if I get caught thats why I'm hopping the creek
Awareness of the legal risk associated with repeated offenses.
I'll skip the fence and twist my ankle but I'm not gunna freeze
Willing to endure physical pain to escape legal consequences.
I tell myself I'm gunna quit then only stop for the week
Struggling with addiction, attempting to quit but relapsing.
I need someone by my side to help me get through all this madness
Seeking support to navigate through chaotic life circumstances.
My Aunty died last week and I still don't know what happened
Mourning the recent death of a close family member, uncertain about the circumstances.
I call em when they need it but they never phone me back quick
Feeling neglected when reaching out for support.
I've been feeling guilty for a bunch of shit my Dad did
Guilt over actions of the father, carrying an emotional burden.
I'll probably hold this weight on my shoulders until my back twists
Enduring emotional weight, possibly from various life challenges.
We could never get a house - got stuck up on that blacklist
Facing difficulties in obtaining stable housing due to a negative history.
Leave my flat with nothing and won't be back til the bags flipped
Leaving home with uncertainty and potential involvement in illegal activities.
Dreams of waking up in jail with sweat up on my mattress
Nightmares about imprisonment, reflecting fear and anxiety.
I dont wanna have to live my life like this
Expressing a desire to escape the current challenging life situation.
Im slowly losing who I am and I cant find my grip
Losing a sense of self and struggling to maintain stability.
Im as stubborn as they come but I still try to forgive
Being stubborn but attempting to forgive, acknowledging personal challenges.
I never asked em for some help but now I'm likely to slip
Reluctance to seek help, recognizing the risk of slipping further into difficulties.
She got my head filled with lies and I don't like that shit
Feeling deceived by someone important, expressing discomfort with lies.
I dont want her in my life if I cant trust that chick
Questioning the trustworthiness of a significant person in the singer's life.
But at the same time I'm only and I love that bitch
Expressing love for someone despite their flaws and the challenges in the relationship.
Even when she's playing games I still run back quick
Returning to a problematic relationship despite awareness of games being played.
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