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I see you all
I observe everyone around me.
Beyond this pain
Despite the agony, there's a world beyond.
But I remain trapped
Stuck in a situation, unable to escape.
With the monsters in my brain
Internal struggles haunt me.
Please someone breakthrough this silent restraint
Seeking help to break the silence and restraint.
Wish I could write from the heart
Desire to express genuine emotions.
and tell you what's wrong
Difficulty articulating personal struggles.
and put this gnawing into words
Trying to convey internal pain through words.
But the path is blocked
Obstructed by an insurmountable barrier.
by a wall of glass
A transparent barrier preventing communication.
I scream: and it just bounces back
Expressing frustration at unheard screams.
I waste away
Slow deterioration while anticipating joy.
as I wait and wait
Patiently enduring while hoping for happiness.
just to smile again.
Awaiting the return of genuine smiles.
So desperate for help
Intense need for assistance with no relief.
that nothing helps
Frustration as attempts to find solace fail.
I fail when I try to be my old self
Struggling to reclaim a former self.
How do I fix it?
Seeking a solution to personal challenges.
How do I get better?
Yearning for improvement without a clear path.
Does anybody have an answer?
Questioning if anyone holds the key to recovery.
I'm sick of feeling like a burden
Feeling burdensome to others.
I'm sick of having no control
Lamenting the lack of control over life.
I'm sick of always needing help
Tired of relying on external support.
I'm sick of being afraid of myself
Fearful of one's own thoughts and actions.
They say, they say
Hearing promises of future joy.
You will smile again
Anticipating a different kind of happiness.
But it's not in the same way
Expecting a joy tainted by a barrier.
Not with the same joyful abandon
Loss of carefree happiness.
There will be a barrier between your lips and your eyes
Concerns about the fading light within.
And you'll wonder if they notice, the light that's fading over time.
Wondering if others notice the decline.
You will smile again
Forcing a smile to convince oneself.
as you try to convince yourself it's real
Struggling to believe in the authenticity of joy.
You will keep forcing it
Obliged to fake emotions until it's habitual.
Until forcing it is all you remember how to feel
Loss of the ability to genuinely feel emotions.
You will smile again
Smiling for the sake of others, not oneself.
For the sake of them
An expression of selflessness despite inner struggles.
It's just selflessness and depression
Interconnection of altruism and depressive feelings.
Going hand in hand again.
The coexistence of selflessness and depression.
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