happiness
Emotional Rollercoaster: Seeking Happiness Amidst Struggles
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I got a tattoo
I have a tattoo
But I still wanna hurt myself
Despite having a tattoo, I still desire self-harm
I know the scars are all gone
While the physical scars are healed, emotional scars persist
But I still wanna cry for help
Expressing a need for assistance and support despite the outward healing
And when the needle hits my skin
Reflecting on the act of getting a tattoo, wishing it symbolized overcoming a battle
I kinda wish this were a battle
Desiring a victory that wasn't achieved
I didn't win
Recognition that the struggle is ongoing
They seem to say it's for the season
Others attribute struggles to a specific season, but the pain persists throughout the year
But the season lasts all year
Acknowledging the enduring nature of personal challenges
And for you, I'll keep smiling
Putting on a façade of happiness for someone else
As I'm holding back the tears
Masking inner turmoil while smiling
I know happiness won't stay for long
Acknowledging the transient nature of happiness
But it sure felt nice when it was here
Appreciating the fleeting moments of happiness
And with this tightness in my chest
Physical manifestation of emotional pain in the chest
I miss my breath
Yearning for a sense of normalcy in breathing
I colored my hair
Changing appearance as a coping mechanism
Just to get out of bed
Struggling to find motivation to get out of bed
I thought I'd like myself more
Realizing self-esteem is not improved by external changes
Didn't change what's in my head
Disappointment in the lack of impact from the changes
Too spontaneous, too fast
Regret over impulsive decisions and their fleeting effects
I guess these temporary changes
Understanding that temporary changes do not provide lasting solutions
Aren't meant to last
Acceptance of the impermanence of certain coping mechanisms
They seem to say it's for the season
Reiteration of struggles being attributed to a specific season
But the season lasts all year
Acknowledging that personal challenges persist beyond a designated season
And for you, I'll keep smiling
Maintaining a facade of happiness for someone else despite personal struggles
As I'm holding back the tears
Smiling while concealing inner pain
I know happiness won't stay for long
Recognizing the transience of happiness
But it sure felt nice when it was here
Appreciating the positive feelings while they last
And with this tightness in my chest
Feeling emotional distress manifested physically in the chest
I miss my breath
Longing for a sense of normal breathing
And I wonder where I went so wrong
Reflecting on personal mistakes and the source of current struggles
'Cause I've been feeling this way for so long
Expressing a prolonged period of emotional suffering
They seem to say it's for the season
Reiterating the seasonal attribution of struggles
But my season lasts all year
Personal challenges persist throughout the year despite seasonal explanations
And for you, I'll keep smiling
Maintaining a facade of happiness for others despite enduring personal struggles
As I'm holding back the tears
Smiling while suppressing tears and pain
I know that happiness won't stay for long
Acknowledging the temporary nature of happiness
But it sure felt nice when it was here
Appreciating the positive feelings despite their brief duration
And with this tightness in my chest
Experiencing emotional and physical pain in the chest
I miss my breath
Longing for a sense of normal breathing amid inner turmoil
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