Happy Ever Disaster
Eternal Turmoil: Unveiling the Hidden Struggles in 'Happy Ever Disaster'
Lyrics
Watch the dust as it settles for you
Observing the aftermath and consequences for you
Paint my fingernails to match the mood
Symbolically aligning my appearance with the emotional atmosphere
We always settle for feeling blue
Consistently settling for a melancholic state
And I keep blocking your view
Actively preventing you from seeing my perspective
Looking out for you is the price I pay for caring
Expressing that caring for you comes with a cost
My heart on my sleeve is the punishment I'm wearing
Wearing emotional vulnerability as a consequence
I wish I could relate to the scars that we share
Desiring a connection with shared emotional wounds
But what you don't see is to me, they're not there
Conveying that these scars are not visible to me
You've been up and down a lot
Noticing your emotional ups and downs
And I've been trying to find a new way for us to start
Attempting to find a new beginning for both of us
Cause I can't remember the smell of your clothes
Lamenting the fading memories of our intimate connection
Searching for my purpose just made me feel worthless
Feeling a sense of worthlessness in the pursuit of purpose
I feel the tremors from inside my bones
Sensing inner turmoil and emotional disturbance
A happy ever after is made for disaster with me
Acknowledging that a supposedly blissful ending is disastrous with me
I'll hold you close
Expressing a desire to be close to you
And wait up late at night to make sure you get home
Waiting anxiously to ensure your safe return
But I know this is all 'play pretend'
Realizing the relationship is a facade or role-playing
We're not meant to be more than just friends
Understanding that the connection is limited to friendship
Joyful days turns to months we spend
Enjoyable moments turning into the passage of time
Knowing we're close to an end
Acknowledging the proximity of an inevitable end
Cause I can't remember the smell of your clothes
Reiterating the fading memories of intimacy
Searching for my purpose just made me feel worthless
Revisiting the feeling of purposelessness
I feel the tremors from inside my bones
Experiencing inner turmoil and emotional disturbance once more
A happy ever after is made for disaster with me
Highlighting the incompatibility of a happy ending with the speaker
And every excuse that we make
Acknowledging avoidance and excuses in the relationship
Avoiding the things that are too hard to say
Avoiding difficult conversations and truths
I know that we're wasting away
Recognizing the gradual deterioration of the relationship
Losing track of what we'd call our yesterday
Losing sight of the past and shared history
Losing track of what we'd call our yesterday
Repeating the theme of losing connection with the past
Cause I can't remember the smell of your clothes
Reiterating the fading memories of intimacy once more
Searching for my purpose just made me feel worthless
Revisiting the feeling of purposelessness once more
I feel the tremors from inside my bones
Experiencing inner turmoil and emotional disturbance once more
A happy ever after is made for disaster with me
Emphasizing the incompatibility of a happy ending with the speaker once more
Cause I can't remember the smell of your clothes
Reiterating the fading memories of intimacy once more
Searching for my purpose just made me feel worthless
Revisiting the feeling of purposelessness once more
I feel the tremors from inside my bones
Experiencing inner turmoil and emotional disturbance once more
A happy ever after is made for disaster with me
Emphasizing the incompatibility of a happy ending with the speaker once more
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