Lyrics
Waiting for the day when I wake up and I don't need a pill to feel like I still want to be alive
Expressing the desire to wake up without relying on medication to find motivation to live.
Waiting for the day when I wake up and I don't need a pill to feel like I still want to be alive
Reiteration of the longing to not require a pill to feel a sense of purpose in life upon waking up.
I don't wanna be alive sometimes yeah
Acknowledging occasional feelings of not wanting to be alive.
Really wish I would have died sometimes when
Expressing a strong wish for death during specific challenging moments.
I was still living life like a movie
Reflecting on a past when life seemed like a scripted movie.
Back when I was going to the trouble it didn't come to me
Recalling a time when facing troubles didn't affect the speaker as profoundly.
Back when I felt lonely but I always had company
Remembering feeling lonely despite having constant company.
Back when I had drive to feed the family family
Nostalgia for a period of life marked by motivation to provide for the family.
All I got is memories that drain me of my energy
Current existence dominated by memories that emotionally exhaust the speaker.
I don't have a way I'm losing leaves with this winter breeze
Feeling directionless and losing vitality in the metaphorical winter of life.
Waiting for the day when I wake up and I don't need a pill to feel like I still want to be alive
Repetition of the desire to wake up without relying on pills to find purpose.
Waiting for the day when I wake up and I don't need a pill to feel like I still want to be alive
Continued expression of the hope to live without dependence on medication for motivation.
I spend all my time inside these days yeah
Spending significant time indoors, possibly indicating withdrawal or isolation.
I don't even turn the lights on when I'm
Avoiding light and remaining in bed, possibly symbolizing emotional numbness.
Still in bed feeling dead playing Uzi
Mention of listening to Uzi (possibly referring to rapper Lil Uzi Vert) while feeling emotionally detached.
Tell homies I'm just chilling when they ask me how I'm doing
Pretending to be fine when asked about well-being to avoid revealing inner struggles.
Reminisce on days when I was feeling like I was a king
Nostalgia for a time when the speaker felt confident and powerful.
Before I felt like all my sanity was hanging by a string
Describing a period when mental stability felt fragile and vulnerable.
Feel like I'm a bill away from taking myself a hefty drink
Feeling close to succumbing to unhealthy coping mechanisms, like excessive drinking.
Self destructive I just need to take my pills so I don't think
Acknowledging a tendency towards self-destructive thoughts, emphasizing the need for medication.
Waiting for the day when I wake up and I don't need a pill to feel like I still want to be alive
Reiteration of the desire for a future where pills are unnecessary for finding purpose in life.
Waiting for the day when I wake up and I don't need a pill to feel like I still want to be alive
Continued expression of hope to wake up without relying on medication for motivation.
Waiting for the day when I wake up and I don't need a pill to feel like I still want to be alive
Repetition of the anticipation for a day when pills won't be needed for a sense of purpose in life.
Waiting for the day when I wake up and I don't need a pill to feel like I still want to be alive
Continued longing for a future where waking up doesn't necessitate relying on pills to find meaning.
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